What if this was the only opportunity you had?

So do not throw away this confident trust in the Lord. Remember the great reward it brings to you. Patient endurance is what you need now, so that you will continue to do God’s will. Then you will receive all that He has promised. Hebrews 10:35-36

I layed on the exam table as the ultrasound tech took some pictures of my babygirl. I was 22 weeks pregnant with our first born and so excited that we made it to the halfway mark. My husband and I waited patiently as the tech notified us that she was going to show the radiologist the images. As she returned I noticed my dr come from behind the curtain as well. She looks at me and says “Eliana, we no longer have a heartbeat”.

Immediately my heart broke and although she was still inside of me I felt such an emptiness. I was induced and on September 5th, 2013 delivered our daughter Sophia Jolie Acosta.

We had spent the last 22 weeks mentality preparing ourselves to become a family of 3 and we left the hospital one Acosta down.

A couple days later our pastors met with us and asks me “Eliana, how are you?” I had a hard time answering that question. I was hurt and to be honest kind of mad at God. Why would He allow this to happen to me? He knew I wanted to be a mother. He knew it was something I dreamt about my entire life. So being completely transparent I said “Pastor, Im hurt and upset with God.” He asks “If this was the only opportunity you had of being a mother would you still serve God?” I couldn't answer that question but pondered on it all night. Although I was suffering everything inside of me could never walk away from God. I didn't understand what He was doing but one day I would.

As my husband drove us home, I stared at the sky with tears falling from my eyes and said “God, even if this was the only opportunity I had of being a mom, I will serve you everyday of my life. Please Lord say something. I need to hear from you.”

The following morning I opened my Bible app and the verse of the day was...

So do not throw away this confident trust in the Lord. Remember the great reward it brings you. Patient endurance is what you need now, so that you will continue to do God’s will. Then you will receive all that He has promised (Hebrews 10:35-36).

I instantly wept. God answered!! He heard me and knew exactly what I needed. I reread that verse multiple times that day.

You might find yourself in the valley today but I would like to ask you the same question. What if this was the only opportunity you had? Will you still serve God? Will you give Him your very best trusting that His promise will be fulfilled in your life?