Have you ever felt cornered? Up against the wall? As if you don't even know who you are?
It's where I find my life right now. There are times I feel anxious, angry, useless, and afraid. My character has been questioned, I have been talked about, I have been shamed and laughed at.
Yet, I'm learning!
I am learning that:
*I am capable to be a great mother, a great wife, a great supervisor, a great daughter, a great sister, a great friend, a great youth leader, a great writer... all in Jesus' name.
*That when others look down on me, I can still look up to the one who has called me.
*Kindness breaks the hardest of people.
*I don't have to lift a finger; the Lord fights my battles and knocks my enemies out one by one.
*My identity is found in Jesus, not man.
*His power is made perfect in my weakness.
I have recently started studying Paul's ministry in the bible. He went from being a persecutor of Christians to being the very instrument the Lord used to preach about His goodness. Paul went everywhere and anywhere to preach about God. He was passionate about Jesus.
In the early stages of Paul's ministry some Jews (who did not believe in Jesus) won over some of the crowd to their side and they stoned Paul; dragged him out of town thinking he was dead. But Paul got up and went right back into the town! (Acts 14:19-20)
That's right after being stoned and dragged, he got back up and went right back in. Man, this hit me like a pound of bricks.
"Get Up, and Go back in"
I am learning that when every inch of me wants to run and hide, or call it quits, I need to look up to where my strength comes from and GET UP! When people's opinions hold me down, I just need to spend time with He who called me and GET UP! When I feel worthless, I need to remember HIS love and GET UP! When anxiety and fear try to keep me captive, I need to reach out for my father and GET UP.
When I have been stoned with words and dragged with insecurities, GET UP and GO BACK IN!
Don't give up, never give up. Get up and Go back in!
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